you know what? when i thinking about some problem , i'm always wonder "if... "
and when i say "if ..." i fell more down than before i say it.

i don't know why that word make me down, make me fell like a BIG LOSER in this world.

example, one day i have problem with my family (remember this is only example) and i dont know how to face that problem because in that time i'm only little child, my dad and my mom gone, i don't know what i must to do, i don't know how to solve that problem, so  say that word "If, my dad and my mother here they will help me to face this problem, they will hug me and said 'we're here dont worry it's gonna be oke'" and yup it make me more down .

so now i decide, never say "If.." word again if, that word make me down and sad :S ( i just said that) *Flat